Thursday, December 11, 2008

Peace Speaker

This is the matching room where our "dossier" sits
and waits to be pulled. A dossier is apacket of all of
our blood sweat and tears, not to mention our
life story documented and notarized...
certified... and authenticated!
When God's perfect timing is complete, someone
from the matching department will reachfor our file and begin to read over it thoroughly. She will look through the profiles of available "paper ready babies" and match a baby to our dossier based on everything they have learned looking through our file. This is where all of our prayers meet the heart and mind of sweet Chinese social worker. She/he may not even know what is guiding them to this particular photo, that photo.... but Mark, Jason, Andrew and I know that this is the moment where an all knowing God literally creates a match made in heaven.

As some of you already know, our chosen adoption agency was Hope for Children out of Atlana. A few weeks ago we were abruptly notified that due to the failing economy, Hope was closing their doors effective immediately. An agency partner would be taking over our adoption process if we so choose. This offer came at an unexpected, significant fee increase. I don't have words to describe the fear and mistrust that began to consume my thoughts. Here we are so close to a referral and we are forced into the unknown. Then to add insult to injury came the news that the CCAA was increasing the orphanage fee donation from $3000 to $5000! Again... unexpected unforseen fees.
We have been brought to our knees (literally) by this flurry of unexpected events.
But God... that same all knowing God that will guide our daughters photo to our profile, is not shocked or caught off guard. He has used many caring family members and friends to intercede on our behalf. Peace comes like a soothing balm over a raw wound.
I'll close with Psalms 40:1-4a
I waited patiently for the Lord:
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear and
put their trust in the Lord.
Blessed is the man who
makes the Lord his trust.
Our family is blessed beyond measure this Christmas Season!
We love you ,
Cindy (for Mark, Jason, and Andrew)